I walked into the gym today anxious, as if it were my first visit. It’s been a week and a half since my last training session. I’m coming off a cold and have only trained once in the last three weeks. I was excited yet apprehensive to get back at it. How easy it is to break routine. Would I be able to lift what I did last time? If I had to scale it back, how would this sit with me? Could I accept and trust that I would get back to where I was? Am I strong enough?
I’ve struggled with self-confidence, self-love, and self-compassion for many years. My yoga practice has helped and continues to redefine my perception of Self. But once I step back from something or start something new, these feeling come rushing back. We are often quick to tear ourselves down, while we forget to boost ourselves up.
How could I encourage myself in this darker, weaker moment?
Last night I spent some time with a dear friend. We were discussing motivation and how she approaches each lift. What mantra do you use to prepare for the task at hand? I thought about that today before I stepped up to the squat rack – What is my mantra? Loud and clear: I AM STRONG ENOUGH. While I struggled with my squats today, I continued to say I AM STRONG ENOUGH. Sure we had to scale back, but rather than feel defeated I was grateful.
I am here, I am healthy and I am doing things I never thought I would be able to.
It all paid off, I deadlifted my personal best today – 125lbs. Oh and I was also soooo close to a full chin up. Next week I’ve got this!
So maybe by taking a step back and fully recovering I am renewed, refreshed and indeed stronger.
Accomplishment equals empowerment.
So go pick something up and put it down today!
I’m grinning from ear to ear. Allow the light to shine.