Dear Young Yogi,
It doesn’t matter how many times you fall, just breath and someday you will be flying.
This has been my nightly mantra. As I become the strongest I’ve ever been – physically, mentally and emotionally I have been drawn to set challenges for myself. Last week I reconnected with my daily home practice. Every evening I head to the yoga room for a short sit followed by a yin practice. I don’t set time limits for myself, I don’t have a plan, I just go and listen to my body. While this may seem counterintuitive, I’ve been finishing with a handstand – in walks the challenge.
This is the first that I have been motivated to practice a handstand. I never thought I was strong enough, but more importantly I was fearful. Fearful of what – the world being upside down, supporting myself, trusting? Sure, I fall a lot and I’ve only been able to swing one leg to the wall. The fear continues to surface for that brief moment when I need to kick the second leg up. But soon I will have turned the world upside down!
While at the gym last week I took the support from my trainer and got both legs up to the wall. By trusting that I wouldn’t fall I gained the confidence to go for it! I accepted the help that was offered and even suspended in a handstand for a moment, the briefest of seconds. Note to self: Do not do against a door – again! 🙂
Then this week, while at the yoga studio, I got a helping hand from my mentor and the most amazing thing happened. I found comfort in being upside down! Oh don’t worry, I fought it but with this variation I was able to surrender. As soon as I lifted my hands out of the puddle of sweat I softened and started to breath. I closed my eyes and relished in the moment.
I’ve caught the bug, I’ve had support, and I know the exhilaration of having a different perspective. So it doesn’t matter how many times you fall, just breath and someday you will be flying. And when you’re done flying, you get a high five, from your best buddy.